3 slipped discs

I've got 3 slipped discs and I'm slowly fading away.
I used to be hungry for life but nowadays the only thing that gets me out of bed is me loving J and antidepressants. I hate that.
I want me old life back, I want to be the old me, that happy person I know is in there, tucked away.
I just don't have the tools to get her out.

I'm sitting (I know I shouldn't but I can't resist temptation at times) on the couch, working on me blogs, working on pics, checking me facebook whilst J's playing on his puter.
I suddenly realize what time it is, half ten, and that me back-pain has started me endometriosis up. me tummy's all swollen and achy...

Me cold's worse today aswell...geez, I know I sound like a total winch right now but I'm allowed. This is my blog, my outlet! So there!
I probably should head off to bed soonish :o(

pain

am in pain.

I'm so tired of being in pain. am so tired of waking up to pain, living in pain, breathing pain.
I just want to be well again. to be normal.
is that too much to ask?

this Friday has blessed me with the headache from hell, sore throat, fever and lower backpain. I can't sleep. ended up back on the couch watching a moving documentary on cf and it inspired me to start a blog. not that I feel particulary interesting these days but...

we'll see where this takes me.
I hope it'll give me perspective, take me mind off a.s.o.

well then, I'm off to bed with j to try again, sleep tight!